the Odd Future gig sucked. i'm really depressed now. it was full of white teenage shitheads getting into fights and being arseholes because they're listening to black people rap in Brixton. i felt embarrassed to be there and had a miserable time. the girls were nice to look at, but i can look at girls anywhere.

this will be a long dark night of the soul. i was in a bad mood earlier too, but i snapped myself out of it a little. i wanted to go home to see my cousin tomorrow but it means talking to the rest of my family, so that's probably not going to happen. i might go to Meatliquor to see if that girl acts like she doesn't even know me. why do i still care about that? because no other girl has given me any attention since her. are these real problems? they feel real to me; i know i have money and freedom, but the only thing i really want is to meet girls, so the money and time don't mean a lot to me.