i might have a part-time job. i went into a coffee shop a couple of days ago and talked to one of the girls working there. she told me they're hiring and i gave in my CV today. i think she must have said something to the manager because he didn't even want to interview me; i have a trial next week. so that's something, huh? i like coffee, and cafés have a nice atmosphere. this isn't Starbucks or equivalent; it's gourmet shit and a bit more chilled. the girl is pretty cute too.

other than that, i've just been reading a lot. i bought The Prince by Machiavelli, Meditations by Marcus Aurelius, Sickness unto Death by Kierkegaard and The Symposium by Plato. i'm in a little phase where i want to soak up wisdom and think seriously.

i went home to see my cousin yesterday, which was great. i missed her. she got really excited when i turned up and sat next to me at the table in the kitchen while i ate, keeping her hand on my arm the whole time. i love being around her; she's the only person in my family i feel a real bond with.

i got sick almost two weeks ago and it's been pretty rough. i haven't been able to go to the gym and i'm just knackered all day. can't sleep either. stupidly, i've been smoking even more because i'm not going out. i really want to stop smoking weed. when i'm semi-sober, i get a much more positive reaction from people, i feel more articulate and less self aware. i went to therapy on Tuesday and i missed the scheduled time by four hours. he didn't even charge me extra because he said he can see i'm not in a place where i can be expected to keep appointments right now. that sort of stung, actually. i am pretty fucked up lately.

hopefully i can meet some cool people with this job. i'm so fucking bored.

i lurk /mu/ and recently discovered Death Grips. i haven't been listening to anything but Exmilitary and The Money Store for about 3 days. they're playing Brighton next month and i might go.