i want to help people with depression, i think. now that i'm not depressed and i see how fucking great life is, it kills me to imagine how many people out there feel the way i did the last 2 years right now: waking up every morning wishing you'd died in your sleep, nothing to look forward to, feeling ugly and boring and alone.
i am pretty shocked by the physical effects of depression, too. i looked like shit the last 2 years. suddenly, i'm happy and my skin is clear, hair looks good, i catch my reflection and actually like what i see. i'm drinking and doing drugs pretty much every night, i can't eat half what i used to and yet i feel so much more vital and strong.
i guess what i want to say to people going through it right now is that when you recover from it you won't recognise your world view, opinions or attitudes at all: they will be so far outside your reality when you're happy that they make no sense to you at all. for me, what got me over it was being social. just be around people you like as much as possible, and talk to them. fuck what they might think of you; interesting people will always divide opinions, and that's a good thing. it's better than being some boring cunt no one remembers.
good for you man,although do you really look better or do you just -think- you look better cause you're happier? maybe your depression caused a blurred self-image? (dont know how to properly word it but I think you get my point)
ReplyDeleteOh and uhh if you dont mind me asking do you still use the routine in your simplyshredded interview or no?
a lot of people have told me unprovoked that i look better lately. it's just a confidence thing; i'm smiling more, i'm more animated, etc. so it just leaves a better impression than when i was a moody quiet cunt.
ReplyDeletei haven't used that routine for almost 3 years. it's complete bullshit. my workout is very simple now: i normally do some power clean and jerks to warm up, then some kind of squat (overhead, front or high bar), and on different days i'll do other compounds like a deadlift, OHP, bench, dumbbell row, GHR/leg curl/whatever bullshit machine they have for hamstrings. i do a lot of bodyweight pull ups now too. most of my sets build up to 3x5 following a ramping structure where i'll start with light weight for a set of 12, then increase the weight and decrease the reps until i reach a 5rm which i will attempt for 3 sets
Tiny, even I'm sick of people asking questions about something you said years ago in your SimplyShredded interview. Just saiyan.
ReplyDeleteDude, you sound like you need some help. Sounds like you're Bipolar, because that's exactly what I sounded like when I had an episode.
ReplyDelete"i want to help people with depression, i think. now that i'm not depressed and i see how fucking great life is, it kills me to imagine how many people out there feel the way i did the last 2 years right now: waking up every morning wishing you'd died in your sleep, nothing to look forward to, feeling ugly and boring and alone."
This is pretty much spot on. Plus, you're doing drugs and drinking everyday so that pretty much a dead give away.
PLEASE BE SAFE
gotta agree with the guy above, don't get "complacent" now that you're happy, you can crash in a day.
ReplyDeletei understand how you want to help everyone. it's so hard to explain how to get out of it though...it's so circumstantial
ReplyDeletehope you can help others where i have personally failed. Also, you got a contact email or something?
How did you go about being more social?
ReplyDeletewell i knew a lot of people already but it has been so long since i hung out with them that while i was depressed i didn't feel like i could even talk to them. i just got over it and started talking to people again, then invitations to do things came. i'm proactive about it now.
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